Ahhh… Now I Get it! “I Matter!!”
I have come to realize my last blog post missed the mark I was going after. In it I exhorted all of you to know that you are needed and that you matter. But what was missing was the vulnerability factor. You see, for years I have been able to see how much all of you mattered but struggled to see that “I mattered.” It was so much easier for me to build up others, to focus on their amazing-ness and encourage them to step out so I didn’t have to venture out and discover my own. Now I understand this is the coward’s way of doing life.
Last week was a huge growth week for me. I came to the realization I didn’t believe with all of my being that I mattered. I know I have value and I know that I am created in the image of God, the identity stuff is not what I was struggling with. I became aware that it was easier for me to exhort and release others to be all they were created to be because there was less risk involved than if I had to deal with myself and my own insecurities. In a nutshell, I have come to live a risk-less life.
“Do you want to be safe and good, or do you want to take a chance and be great?”
— Jimmy Johnson
Dallas Cowboys Coach